Everyone's getting married!

This time, being home made me realized that a lot of things have changed. Prices seemed to have zoom up since the last time I've been home. Shopping is just so much more expensive now. There are much more cars out on the road. Political situation at home isn't getting that much better. And guess what. This year, people around me are getting married. Really. Seems like we're (or I'm) now at that age where, I guess it's time for people to settle down with a significant other. In my opinion, it is still too early for me to think about marriage... but I guess views vary. To be fair, those around me getting married are older than me. Well, except a few.

My cousin, Rachel, is getting married in July in San Francisco. She's moving there with her future husband-to-be for good. She found such a wonderful man to take care of her and be by her side for all the good and bad days to come. But yet, when we had dinner with her the night before she was supposed to leave, I couldn't help but feel a little sad that she has to leave. Growing up, we weren't the closest but I always looked up to her strong personality and her ability to live away from home in Singapore ever since she was young. She's a confident person and is confident with her opinions. Over the years, she has grown a lot and now she's tying the knot, and moving away from the Lim family. Hugging her goodbye, even though knowing that I will be seeing her again, I realized that it is going to be tough to get the Lim clan all together in one place again. I do wish her all the best though. She's the first of the Lim cousins to get married... and we're all so proud and happy for her.

Another cousin of mine, a doctor (on my mum's side) is getting married next March. And of course, I won't be there. I know he's been looking forward to this day... and even though I haven't met his future wife (probably will next month) I'm sure she's lovely. She's a very lucky girl. He's smart, good looking, a doctor (you know how we females always think "Oooh Doctor!") and he's really a good guy. He always took the time to play and spend time with my brother and I as we were growing up. I'm so happy for him.

The best friend is also getting engaged in Sept of this year and getting married next October. How crazy is that. Of course I'm happy for her. Can anyone ever say they're not happy for the person getting married? Especially when it's family or good friends. For selfish reasons, usually if it's someone close I am inside a little sad. Because marriage kinda seems like a sign that things may change. Maybe it's also because I'm not yet jumping on the same boat, that it somehow makes me scared that our relationship might change. I know it's a silly thought. But still can't help thinking like that. Of course, even though the circumstances around each of us might be different, doesn't mean the relationship will change for the worse.

It still baffles me that we're at that stage of life where we tend to think about serious things such as marriage. I don't think I'm ready for all that at all. Maybe in a couple of years. But not now. I think I've inherited some cynical and nervousness for the unknown genes from my mum maybe? Why am I still talking about this again?