It's the Summer and I haven't Blogged at all!

Yeah, been really neglecting this blog that has been my vent for emotions for the past few months. I feel bad. I am so so so bad at getting online when I am back home in Malaysia. I'm just not the workaholic that some people are (*cough* hui) and I always associate work and 'annoying things that I have to do' with getting online. I know, it also means keeping in touch with friends, and gaining information, reading the news and all.... Coming back to Malaysia means to me... dinners with family, tv time with my favourite shows that I rarely get to watch when back in the US, chores around the house and for the parents, meeting friends and extended family that I only get to see once a year. Maybe it's because coming home, I have so much more to think about and consider other than just myself and my life. It's different back home, there's other people that I have to think about.
Who am I kidding, I'm just making excuses for neglecting my blog.

These few months since after graduation has been months of contemplation for me.
So... what now? I'm a fresh graduate. Just like millions other people on this planet.
....What now?
.........No idea.
...............I'd like to proudly announce that "The world is my oyster!".
I'm naive. But not as naive as that.
Fact is. I'm nervous as hell.
Yeah yeah, I got into grad school.
Now I'm nervous with starting grad school.
First, I have to get my visa. That's a pain in a butt in itself.

My mum and I had "one of those days" a few days ago that made me realize something very important. I mean, I've always known it, but it just hit me all of a sudden that day. She misses me. She really misses me and my brother when we go back to the US. She won't upfront admit it though, she does it in her own way. Back in the US, I get so busy with the life that I have made for myself that I didn't have the time to Skype her, and it hurt her. Sure I call her every other day, but she doesn't get to see me through phone calls, and I never realized how important it was to her to be able to see me. I was so busy with what I wanted to do, with plans that I have made, everything I, never her. Note to self, Skype with mummy more :)
As someone reminded me "You can't stand not seeing him everyday, but for our parents, we're content with just seeing them once a year".

Just something to think about.